Contemplation
My life has little time for contemplation now a days. Between a toddler, teenager, small business and other life happenings, including my lack of want to look at things I spend little time thinking about life. Tues and Wed of this week I was laid up illness that pretty much kept me off my feet and in bed. Much of this time was spent sleeping, some in angst but I did wind up spending some time contemplating.
While I easily able to look at where I am and where I’ve been, it was difficult to look at what I want. As I spent time considering this question I found my emotions going to other things like; what if what I want does jive with Adele? What if what I want isn’t what’s necessarily best for all? What if what I want isn’t what I have today?
I tried to wrestle with these questions and was struggling not to block them from my mind. While I found it somewhat uncomfortable, it was a good exercise, one I probably shouldn’t wait until I’m on my back to conduct. It’s very difficult for me and probably any of us to put our true wants in front of others.
Although I didn’t check email for two days (guilt – guilt), I can say my sick days were productive. They helped me spend some time contemplating life a worthy exercise for anyone.
Tom Pellicane
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Tom, I have done similar exercises in contemplation. I think its great that you took the time for whatever reason to truly consider what it is you want in life. I always find it interesting when I really pull back the layers and take a clear look at my life how much ‘interference’ there is in my mind and how much conflict in my emotions about what: ‘I want’. Between my upbringing, social and cultural influences, telling me what I ’should’ want, loved ones perceived wishes, things I have been telling myself I have to focus on or should be focusing on, it can be quite a trial to get clear on what my truest desires for my life are. One technique I have used that has yielded some interesting results is after meditating for 5 or 10 minutes just to get grounded and clear, and then asking the question out loud to my self. “What do I want my career focus to be?” As an example, and then sitting back and just breathing and watching what images, ideas and emotions arise….
Tom
I agree that this is so important, yet few of us take the time to do this exercise. Because my life path has changed quite drastically over the last few years, I have made it part of my ritual to contemplate. I have so many interests, constant need to learn, to reach out to like-minded people, career desires, and goals which constantly change as I evolve.
Sometimes it’s all a blur, sometimes there’s clarity. Unfortunately, I’m going through a Neptune transit in my career house which is causing a bit of bluriness! But I’ll survive : )
This past year I’ve had many up and downs career-wise, and sometimes I have paused as well, wondering if this is best for my family. But I’ve realized that it’s all part of the journey. Enjoy the ride!
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